Life

Blood pouring down the walls, like slow crimson rivers of death,

And we fight for another beginning to follow this darkened end.

And pain has not been by in quite some time,

When the last decent person was set in the ground…

Sometimes I try to think about the difference,

But now I cannot believe how my mind won’t wrap around

This bullshit excuse you have for a life.

Welcome

It’s your unintentionally curly hair that catches me,

Your stubborn eyes that pull me in…

Your spiteful smile that holds me down,

It’s your gentle hands that touch my skin,

Your tender voice that threatens me,

The midnight eyes that speak for you

Are all I couldn’t leave…

Your body was made for me.

You are my everything, my dear…

My sweet stability,

You are all that anchors me,

And I’m all that you should fear.

Your moonlight skin that glows for me,

Around you I can’t breathe.

Although I am your deepest curse,

It’s with simplicity.

A world so dark and so confusing…

Is waiting for your voice,

You are my deepest lullaby,

I am your sharpest curse.

Although you cannot understand

These urges can control,

You have awakened butterfly,

You will be mine and you will see

The night is so much sweeter…

You see the world through steady eyes,

You see it’s so much deeper.

And though you close your eyes right now,

And try walking away,

You will understand my dear…

This is your only way.

I used to know you

I stand beside you always,

Just like I always have,

I know your every movement,

I know your every thought

At least I used to know all that.

I knew how to finish your sentences,

I knew your exact heart beat time…

But now, my dearest, I know none of that.

You used to let me visit

And watch your dreams each night,

I used to have my own spot

In a dusty place up top.

Now I walk beside you,

My head bowed to the ground,

The shackles on my wrists and neck

Keep pulling me down.

Ask me if I miss you, darling.

Go on, ask me if I give a damn.

You’ll find my answer quite surprising,

And quite affirmative.

I used to know you darling,

And I do bleed for you…

For now, each time I walk with you

You never look beside you.

From Afar

I stand alone and watch from a distance,

Blood on my hands and sand in my eyes

Leaning against a barbed wire fence,

Squeezing needles in my palms.

And I try to pull away but my legs are nailed

And this 3 by 4 I carry around on my back

Sinks into my porcelain skin, I pay for my sin

And I watch from afar